Nowadays, many things have changed, and we have no choice but to accept and live with them. There comes a time when a particular point in our lives falls without prior notice. The unexpected happens, and we don’t know how to stand up and fix ourselves. I experienced my downfall. After so many challenges happened in my life, I felt that I just wanted to give up on everything, everyone, and even my life. I experienced such things that I can’t even imagine could happen. But life is life. We don’t know what the future holds. We are just the directors of our lives, but we’re not the owners of it. It is hard to be left alone with people who can’t understand you, but it is more challenging if you distance yourself from the people who care about you. I almost shut everyone out and at this point, you’re going to see who stayed with you at your worst and who just left and stopped talking to you. As time went by, some thoughts …

I am having a hard time coping with other people recently. I was embarrassed and disappointed by the people whom I truly trusted. Shit, happens, right? But why I’m experiencing these things? Sometimes I want to be alone and shut people out. I’ve been engaging myself in the online world for the past months. Playing different types of games, chit chatting with other people around the world. Seriously, I love meeting new people. I’m somewhat excited about exchanging stories and experiences in life because, for me, it is one of the best ways to know the person better. But what if you meet someone who would destroy the inner peace in you? What will you do? In my case, I can’t completely cut ties with them; however, if it’s the right thing to do for myself, then I have no choice. Most of the time, I choose to help them; I prefer to guide them and adjust to being more comfortable with me, but now I’ve decided to pick myself over anyone. Self-love is what …

I’m so in love with a new pair of kicks! I bought it from Payless and it cost P1200. I use it for running and exercise when I have time. 

I know that moving on is not an easy task to do. It is very difficult and it will take some time but for my sake, for myself, and for my life, I will do it. I will not force myself right away because TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS. I have to face everything to continue living as a normal human being. Yes, it is hard but I know I can do it.  I just need to be positive in all the ways I can to start a new beginning. I may not be able to change the past but I believe that I can change the ending of my story. I need to do this for myself. I need to love myself more and my family. I need a new mindset. I need myself. I need self-love.

I recently made a trip to UPLB to submit some additional requirements. I’m still holding on to hope, praying, wishing, and firmly believing that I can gain entry into graduate school. Pursuing my Master’s Degree is something I’m extremely passionate about, even though there are individuals trying to bring me down because they don’t believe in my potential. That’s life, filled with its ups and downs. Success doesn’t come without encountering failures, discrimination, and criticism along the way. I’ve decided to use these negative sentiments, discrimination, and criticism as motivation to improve and ultimately succeed. I’ve grown weary of shedding tears and am determined to change my perspective on life. When your mind and heart are genuinely set on achieving your goals, you can overcome obstacles, even when there are naysayers trying to hinder your progress. I’ve learned to let their disbelief slide off me. I’m making a promise to myself that I will become a successful woman one day, not just through intelligence or bravado, but through hard work, perseverance, and unwavering faith in …