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Vlogging as an Introvert

Yesterday, I decided to change my username on YouTube. I want to use kimarodri or kimarodriguez (if not taken) as my username for all my social media platforms. For personal branding, consistency is essential and for other people to easily remember me. As I was about to change, I opened my YouTube account and saw my old videos. I have two shorts and one regular video. This video is like a “vlog” that I uploaded four years ago. Vlogs were very popular at that time. By doing this so-called, Watsons Haul. I was shocked that I did it and joined the trend. I’m an introvert. I know that I am not confident about showing my face, recording, or doing anything. But I find it fun that I managed to experience vlogging. I am forever grateful and happy that I did. At least I have something to look back lol. I shared this with my friends. They all laughed. It seemed like they didn’t expect me to do that, hahaha.

How will I overcome Impostor Syndrome?

What is Impostor Syndrome? Impostor Syndrome is a psychological occurrence or a condition of feeling anxious, doubting skills, talents, accomplishments, or not believing in oneself. Challenge Lately, I find myself afraid and anxious about my skills in the company I am now working at. There are times that my confidence are getting low just because I think I am not good and reliable enough to do the job I need to do. I know that these feelings are just in the mind. But still, I want to express it here so it won’t stay in my head. I have no one to share this kind of feeling because I don’t want to bring negative energy to others. Solution The only way I know to address this is by atomically changing my daily habits because it can impact the way neurons work, especially if the habits are repeatedly undergone. In continuing this, I know I will develop a new behavior that can change how I perceive myself.

How are you?

“How are you?” A question rarely posed by those I hold dear and cherish. Lately, my anxiety has been on the rise, and I’ve been feeling down these past few days. While I know I should try to ignore it and not let it bother me, the relentless cycle of overthinking continues to haunt me. There are good days, but most are not. I find myself extremely vulnerable to the hurtful things people say about me. I often question whether I’m just overanalyzing, or if some individuals genuinely revel in meddling in others’ affairs. Nonetheless, in the face of all the challenges I’m enduring, I am determined not to be consumed by them. No one has the right to define who I am or limit my potential. They only know the fragments of my life that I choose to reveal. Most importantly, whatever they say is no longer my concern. I wholeheartedly believe in myself, my abilities, and my values.

Something about 28th

I’m turning 28 in a few days, and here I am, still in the same boat as before. I wonder where this pressure and fear come from, but I do feel that turning 28 in this state is not something that I wish about. I always overthink and ask myself these questions “What happened?”, “Is this the end?”, “Will I still be able to achieve my dreams?” and “Until when will I stay this way?” Turning 28 with no job, savings, or career is something that all people are scared about. I can’t blame anyone, though I know I am the only one responsible for my life. I am still lucky to live in a house with food to eat and water to drink. I’m a failure but a learner I failed in different scenarios in my life. I don’t know where it all starts, but from the very first, I don’t know what I want. When I entered college, I was undecided. I wanted a computer-related course, but then I took Biology because my parents …